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Few things.

Went back to YTSS�to see Ms Chiang. She looks fine. I find it hard to find suitable words to describe the visit, because, it seems just as the usual. Good old times.

Logged on to register for the MOE�Scholarship Seminar. After I registered I kind of wondered why I am going, because I went to read up and basically, you need to offer 10-11 units. Iapos;m offering 10 now. I�have sort of decided not to go for 11 anymore. So... Hmmm. But I�guess itapos;ll be wasted if I�donapos;t use the invitation properly. Ohwell... Elijah also got the invitation, so weapos;re going to go together. Hopefully you yu can go with us, but he has some physics olympiad thing.

I spent some time thinking about the teaching career. Iapos;ll say that one of the last career Iapos;ll ever thought of myself being in would be teaching. I donapos;t know, after all the nightmares Iapos;ve seen my teachers�went through, Iapos;ve never once found it attractive. However, the scholarship is great. It really would send you overseas ( which is what I�want) but you have to, of course, serve some years of bond as a teacher. Which is alright I�guess... Itapos;s not that bad, might even be enjoyable/fun/meaningful. I�will put my faith in whoever that said teaching is a calling�

I am not really sure how many people got it every year. I hope itapos;ll be different from the PSC scholarships, because the last time I�checked(5 minutes ago), all those who got the PSC scholarships are from all the top JCs. Thereapos;s only one amazing( perhaps lucky) student from AJC who got it as wellin 2008. (Believe me, I�checked at least 3 years of the list) The rest, ... Hmmm.�I�am starting to wonder why Iapos;m in the scholars development programme already.

Anyway, thatapos;s that. HAHA. I often wonder if a scholarship is a real thing or not. Itapos;s not really about inferiority if by now, youapos;re thinking it is. Itapos;s just all the facts thatapos;s staring out at you; can you imagine yourself getting something like that if youapos;re just another ordinary student(which I am)? Whenever someone told me they are going for a scholarship, I would think to myself if theyapos;ve really done their homework before making that goal. Hopefully yes, because they wouldnapos;t like to feel the disappointment and shock later on.

During such times, I�find it hard for me to even be my usual self; confident and always thinking that everything is possible if you really want it to happen. Itapos;s difficult to be that way during times like this, because youapos;re now 17 and you roughly know and heard enough about reality from our cooler-than-thou adults around us and you really have to be more realistic. Is that what I�can have someday in future?

Maybe Iapos;ll continue to stubbornly protest that as long as I work REALLY�REALLY�hard, it will be possible.
I�guess I�never thought that this sort of optimism is alot more difficult to master than I�thought.

However, this reality will be put somewhere in my head. Somewhere far far behind, hidden behind all my precious brain tissues. This sort of information wouldnapos;t stop me from working hard still, of course, even if the prospect of a scholarship is very far away currently. Afterall, that is not what Iapos;m working so hard for. But Iapos;m going to do better next year, because I�honestly honestly enjoyed all of it. Studying, that is.

Less serious stuff aside, I�watched MA�MA�MIA The Movie today. Like finally, I�watched that movie. I�really love musicals. The movie is awesome. I�love all the singing and all the hot guys. How did Pierce Brosnan age so handsomely? His eyes are of the most beautiful blue ever. the older ladies who could sing and dance so well. the perhaps, 1000 hot bodies. HAHAHA (�now I know why I donapos;t belong to the working-hard-for-a-scholarship type; too much air in my head)� Oh man, who cares I love all these movies. Itapos;s making me anxious for High School Musical 3. Only this time, no older people singing, but young people, young and HOT people. Yes If youapos;ll just excuse all the hyperventilating, because you know, I�want to enjoy myself properly before Iapos;m too serious for such things.

Theatre, Showbiz, Music, THE�ARTS; I love all of it.

Ma Ma Mia Here I go again,
My My, How can I resist you?